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So guys!!!! This week is so UPSETTING to me!!!! like, abysmal stuffs are trying to break into my brain all at once.

1. I had this unesy feeling in my chest, also I felt my mouth has always been dried and something like grit stucked in my throat. IT TERRIBLY SUCKS. Want to know why did I have to go through these catastrophes?? ofc because I was PANIC and SUPER NERVOUS about this college Entrance Eximination thing!

#wipes all the sweats# But I gues I've gotten over it since a week ago, in other words, I only felt unesy and nervous in one day. Such a donkey. ~~and I got dark circles too.~~

2.YAMAPI AND RYO WITHDRAW FROM NEWS FOR THE HOLY GOD'S SAKE.

Fandom is in a mess now. Like, so horrible situation you don't even want to know. everyone gets depressed and they cry and mourn and hate so much. The first time I knew about this my jaw literally dropped. Because I didn't see this coming at all (everybody stated that they saw this coming though. maybe this is just me who is extremely naive). In spite of all the hints they offered to the public for the whole year. But Yamapi did say HE WOULD NEVER BETRAY THE FANS. AND HE ASKED US TO WAIT FOR NEWS TO COME BACK. I was f belived it, dammit. and I've never expected that Ryo Nishikido, my Kansai King of my life, would be out too. WHAT IS GOING ON????!!!! I'm genuinely sad over this, even though I'm not in the fandom anymore at the moment. But I used to put NEWS as the main fandom in my list.

hi, guys! I don't wish you both to flop. really. just, this is too sad.

don't give me your fly kiss. don't. at least for now.

3. There are two memes are going on now. FANDOM RULES : Can't be two memes going on at the same time. but, yeah, kind of emergency.

JE CONFESSION MEME

EMERGENCY NEWS MEME OF SOVEREIGN HOSTILITY

4. My ENGRISH got critized in meme. I'm glad I was anon that time. She told me that I had no grasp in English. Like I didn't know it already, sweetheart. ♥ I have known it for a long time ago. long time ago probably you haven't even been born. jk :D. I mean, I'm pretty aware about my lack in english, okay. That's why I keep writing this crap in a language I don't even understand entirely so that I can improve bit by bit. But thanks for telling me anyway, I'm a tame kind of type who accept crit very well. #ehem

5. SO, Arashi fandom has been in a major crisis now. People get all worked up because other people do something (according to the common information) inappropriate in arama, like spamming post with Arashi gifs in non-Arashi post. Everyone who is not an Arashi fan would judge you as crazy fangirl because you are one of Arashi fans. so generalitation is in operation rn. That's why this is a suicidal situation in my ~~current~~ main fandom.

6. EVERYONE THINKS SHO IS MOST LIKELY A GAY

7. I have internal problem tonight. My group of friends had a fight. I'm included. We are more like bestfriends since we have known each other flaws and all. But I believe this is a good chance to make us more mature.

9 kids and in hormonal state.

8. This thing keep me save from insanity so far. It turns out that I still love this guy so freakin much. I thought I had forgotten all about him these past years because I found a new interest, but no. I'm a faithful woman after all.

Look at that neck, ohmigosh, pass me a sheet of tissue, my nose is bleeding.

Look at that long, strog, and masculine hands.

I'm too busy staring to care about my drooling.

OF COURSE, ALL OF THE MATERIALS I USED HERE BELONG TO ITS OWN

Current Mood: blah
Current Location: my room

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19 Maret 2010

I've been thingking about this all the year. Tears because of farewel. Warm hugs, heavy heart, tremble shoulder, stammer voice, and says good bye. Today, that day finally came. Shaked hands and tapped each other, mumbled about 'good luck!', 'success!', 'cheer up!', as we glomped, wetting our uniform, shared squish.

Chief of Stroke Alone : "Frankly, I hate 'separated' word and I hate being separated. But we have to. We have our own way to through, we have ourselves fate, we do have ourselves life, but we will be one forever, we will be friends forever, we will be family forever. In the future, if you've became something, don't ever forget about our brothers, our sisters. Don't ever think about ex high school friend nor ex Stroke Alone. If you want to cry, just let it out, hug whoever besides you, hug them tightly, because an embrace can warm up your heart, minor your pain. Thanks to all, thank you very much" he stuttered, shaking voice echoed in the language class, he cried. The tears fell down on his cheek, he kept his palm covered up his mouth as he continued speechs. His words felt as deep as ever. The Hitler of Stroke Alone cried. I couldn't stared stright in his eyes, I couldn't stared anyone eyes.

I couldn't assimilate anything further because my tears was dropping swiftly. I couldn't hear anything except my own severe breath, as the other choked with plenty of sorrow overwhelmed over the air. Everyone was crying, boys an girls, no one of their eyes was dry. We love each other, with full of smile, mischievous attitude, hard laughing, craziness, skipping the class, rowdy, teacher's gripe, bunch of homework, cheating, gossiping, even fracas, we passed day by day together. Our bond isn't as brittle as glass, isn't as slight as paper, isn't as sturdy as great wall, but our bond is eternal. Just as sparkling as the star. Like the sun which would be shining till the end of world story.

Current Mood: mellow
Current Location: my room
Current Music: Seamo. Mother

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Final exam is more and more CLOSER!! hey!! OMG! Can you imagine that?! I sit there, on the desk, in the very front of desk!!! My body starts tremble, my lip becomes blue all of sudden, and I pale. And I feel numb. And I die.
It'd seriously worse if my brain contamines by something like -dumb desease- GAH!! Two days later, I'll go to the real war field. What the heck is it?? Yes, its TEST ENTER UNIVERSITY!! OMG kill me now! Kill me nooow!!! Its better than I have to face it without any excellent prepare!! Huhu haha see? Even my sanity barely vaporizes!! YAH!! The only I can to do is, PRAYING! Yes!! I know GOD witness, and frown to the dull-girl here, she can't stand any life-examination. But I know GOD has SUPER DUPER POWER to help dull-girl like me to through out this life-examination or you can say hell-in the real life *doesn't makes sense? Ignore it* .So? Just take the book and pencil (your precious goodies) and be a monster. MONSTER-WHO's-CRAZY-in STUDY. *gasp* haha huhu

Current Mood: blank
Current Location: my room
Current Music: Park Shin Hye. Without Saying

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Hmm... What about EXAM?? Aha! I knew! I knew I'd touched on that super duper taboo subject! Why taboo? Simply, it's because I've been being afraid and frustation the whole time about this matter!! Really? No. Ehem. To be blunt, I just wondering why don't I have such a feeling. I mean, I'm not panic nor fraightened. I just wondering. WHY did my tears flow without any purpose in the first place? I didn't mean to cry or something, it was flew down itself without command from meh!! Hoh!! So scary right?!! No? Okay. At least, it was weird~ maybe I distracted something like, craziness-syndrome or whatever-you-were-just-worried-admit-it desease. Haha. Haha. Wry laugh. =___=
if you ask who on the earth student with imbecilic policy and don't take too much care about final examination... *points at my nose*

eh what?.. me? *points at my own nose*

YES! ITS YOU BABE!!

Uh! Oh!

Yes! It's you!

You said it twice darling,

it's you!

Three times now,

It's YOU!

Okay, enough. I know, it's me, ryte? Okay.

By the waaay~ from here, I wanna you know something fact, sore facts.

What is it? *frown since it was sore*

Are you curious?? Yes?? Yeees?? Do you want me to tell you whaaat? Yees??

*glare at you. I mean, at myself*

you better not playing around with me. I'm in bad mood.

Ehm, okay, I've observed you.

O.o ? Observed me? Why? What for? Am I that attractive in your eyes *cough* in my own eyes? (okay, this is gonna odd. Just ignore the fact that I'm talking to myself)

umm yeah, maybe I should open up my genius-detective-notes to you.

Go ahead.

First. You do worried about exam issue. But you acted cool~ as if it's easy case that you can handle with your pinkie.

Second. You cried. Okay, you didn't mean it. I know the most you were crying all of sudden before you knew it. You realized that you frightened inside after all.

In order to protect my reputation,
I have to say this, it was just two grain of tears. Okay? I just tears. Not cried.

Yes. Anyhow it's same for me.

No, it isn't. There's wide gap between them.

Yes, up to you. It is not the point anyway.

Third, you DO delusion.

So, what if I DO delusion?

Are you serious with your question?

Yes, I am. I DO, and so what?

Okay, maybe your brain nerves was break off and whatever. I'll definitely keep observe you, as long as you still have a dream on your hand. Ganbatte ne.

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Location: my room
Current Music: F.T Island. Missing You

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Gue. Cuma ngandalin ke-positive thinking-an yang SUPER. Di mana gue gak punya bekal yang dibilang cukup buat berjalan ke arah sana. Menginjakkan satu kaki di depan gerbang ke sana aja udah merupakan kenekatan yang luar biasa. Apa kata orang? Apa kata gue? Apa kata bayang-bayang gue? Apa kata pikiran gue? Dan apa kata hati gue? Kalau gue telaah lewat mata minus gue, ke empat? Lima? Berapa deh. Lupa gue. Kelima aja. Kelima kata-kata gue (yang tadi gue udah sebutin kata-kata siapa, lebih tepatnya kata-kata apa) adalah sama sekali beda. Apa maksudnya? (jah, gue tahu dari tadi gue ngomong kaga jelas, tapi paling gak that matter was very clear for me. Fuhh)
beda. Dalam arti. Dalam otak gue. Gue treak. PLEASE LET IT TO ME. I'LL DEFINITELY DO IT FOR YOU. Beda lagi ama hati gue, (yang notabene, setau gue, hati gue adalah organ yang lebih jujur ketimbang otak gue yang terkadang logis gila tanpa peduliin hati gue yang tereak tereak merintih merintih dan berdarah darah. Ampe sini gue udah lebay max plus buat ukuran kalimat yang terletak di dalam kurung, its a bit.. Ha hahh wtf)
beda lagi ama mulut gue, yang satu ini gue udah nyerah buat ngontrolnya. Terserah mulut gue mau ngomong apa. Terserah dah. Dan sekarang, gue nulis dengan nada dingin karena emang mood gue lagi dingin. (mood macam apa itu? Saya sendiri tak tahu. Yang saya rasakan cuma datar-datar saja. Gak ada kehebohan dan rasa berlebihan yang biasanya melekat dan tak mau lepas dari jiwa dan raga saya) dan sekarang? Mari kita sudahi saja curahan hati yang gak ada ujung pangkalnya ini.
Eh, bentar, gue belon puas. Tapi mau ngomong apa lagi gue.. Gue... I BELIEVE IN MYSELF. Cuma itu. Percaya. Cuma itu. Gue percaya gue bakal sampe sana. Walaupun yang gue punya cuma rasa percaya (yang bukan agak, tapi amat sangat berlebih) tapi gue gak peduli. Ini hidup gue, kalau bukan gue yang jadi nahkodanya, siapa lagi? Jadi mau gue percaya ampe ubun-ubun gue meledak, dan tak seorangpun percaya ampe hati mereka berkarat. Gue tetep percaya. Kalaupun di dunia ini gak ada satu makhluk pun yang percaya ama gue. Bahkan ibu gue sendiri. Gue, tetep, percaya. Jika anda percaya anda akan mendapatkannya, maka anda benar-benar akan mendapatkannya. Kalau yang baca the secret pasti tahu quote ini. -karena seluruh semesta akan membantu anda mewujudkannya- begitu kata mereka, dan gue percaya. Gue, dengan pikiran-pikiran gue, dengan kepercayaan gue yang bisa dibilang gila-gue-gila, dengan kenekatan dan sekaligus ketololan gue, gue siap tempur!!

Jadi? Intinya lo lagi bicarain apa?

Bicara curahan hati gue

isi hati loe ribet yak

ya.

Pantesan cuma dikit orang yang bener-bener bisa paham ama lo.

Ya.

Current Mood: optimistic
Current Location: my room
Current Music: Sakura. Fubky Monkey Babys

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Ehem, gue di sini gak mau sok sebenernya, tapi, gue pikir yang lagi gue alamin adalah tragis. Orang2 pada sms gue, yg intinya seirama, sekata, inbox gue secara berderet-deret bikin gue trenyuh tapi juga diiringi helaan napas yang datang dari idung gue, "kita masuk sma bareng-bareng, lulus juga bareng-bareng", "kita kompak, jangan ada keegoisan", "buat warga genap, ayo maju bersama".Etc etc. Dengan kata lain, "mohon bantuannya buat besok", "mohon kerjasamanya, apapun yang terjadi, usahain". Sms-sms kek gini terus mengalir sepanjang hari, itsu okelah kalo gue genius (well, selama tujuh belas tahun gue emang memproklamirkan bahwasanya gue bocah genius dengan tampang sweety. Tapi kenyataan kadang terlalu pahit buat diungkapin dengan gamblang, kenyataan di mana gue hanyalah anak berotak busuk *kata seorang teman* dan tampang imbisil *ow yeah, kalo tampang gue se adenoid itu, gak mungkinlah hard disk gue kebanjiran poto-poto -narsis- gue khekhe*)

-dan cukup beruntung nan ajaib bisa punya jubah gaibnya Harry buat nutupin hape gue biar jadi kasat mata. Tapi nyatanya sodara-sodara, gue sama kek kalian, kalau kalian gelisah karena merasa belom siap tempur, gue juga. Kalau kalian berharap dapet keajaiban dari langit, terus tiba-tiba otak kalian kontan jadi secerdas Enstein, gue juga berharap demikian. Kalo kalian pikir gue orang yang tepat buat NYEBARIN JAWABAN, kalian SALAH. Karena BANYAK ALASAN gue gak bisa, atau lebih terangnya, SUSAH buat nglakuin hal itu.
Pertama, posisi gue adalah POSISI MATI. Di mana gue duduk paling depan pas di depan panggung (lantai yg posisinya lebih tinggi). Jadi kalo tu pengawas berdiri di situ, mau gak mau dari kepala gue ampe jari kaki gue, oke, gue pake kaos kaki plus sepatu, maksud gue, dari rambut ampe kaki gue bakal keliatan JELAS LAS. Segala aktivitas gue juga bakal ketangkep ama retina dia, mau gue lagi ngupil, nguap, garuk-garuk, mantengin poto Yuto, bahkan sekedar buat MENCET-MENCET TOMBOL KEYPAD! Can't you imagine that, hey guys? Maybe some of you have SUPER talent and EXTREMELY EXPERT for doing this kind of stuff. But not me, sorry. I get nervous easily, I can't look straight in my opponent's eye when I'm lying. My hand getting tremble hardly when it come to cheating. So, can't you imagine I do such a texting activity when FINAL EXAMINATION that has a amazingly suffocated aura around? I think I can't, but if I've a chance, I promise, I'll do it, for us, for our victory. But don't expect too much from me, because hell yeah... Exam word isn't that scares me, so... *shrugh* growing to be adult is lose out sometimes. I did better at my junior high. I did study hard back then.

Kedua, kek yang udah gue bilang, GUE BUKAN ANAK TERPINTAR seangkatan. Bahkan kalo ada yang mau bikin poling buat, 'murid paling males seangkatan' sudah pasti gue bakal masuk jadi nominasi. So, if you want a PERFECT SCORE, don't depend on me. It's just waste your pulse and time. In addition, maybe I woudn't reply to you guys, I don't mean to be meany or creepy but just to you know, I'm a loser. That is all.
I'm not trying to be HOLY HONEST GIRL, I DO WANT cheating too, if I could, if I had a chance.

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Location: my room
Current Music: A.N.JELL As Ever

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Tired. What in the world about tired? That is the tittle, rite? Right~ hehehehh. Time to boasting, and I'm ready with 'haaa~hh' sigh expression word. :p I'm in OH-MY-GOD-I-HAVE-TO-STUDY-VERY-HARD-FOR-THE-GLORY-OF-VICTORY. Two months, and my future will show up under light of heaven with pigeons fly around~ okay, ganbatte atashi!

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Location: Home
Current Music: Reset-super junior

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I don't know why, but. You know? Everytimes someone, stranger who I don't know who, neighbors, my friend's parent, my parent's friend, and whoever and whatever asks me, "ah,where are you going after this? What university? In this city? In that city? UGM? STAN? ITB? Or UI??" Haaaah... I tell you! I don't know! Even I don't know myself! I don't know where's exact I wanna going!! I tell you! If I had brave enough, I wouldn't answer you! You aren't a lord and neither am I. So I shouldn't have answered you. Don't forced me said something made me trapped into my own words. Argh!! I said that I want enter ITB. Is that a bit impossible?? Okay, at least, for me. ITB. That's not as easy as slurp chocolate ice cream in the summer!! Yes, I have to study for reach my aim. ITB is my destination, and everyone knows that the way towards there is like the hell. Fuh...Good night world, I hope that I can saw flash light in my life soon.

Current Mood: sick
Current Location: My room

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Well, school have been make me sinking in pain lately. There are so many repetitions, tasks, homeworks, poison, knive, rope, that be able killing me everytime I careless. *sigh*
being the third senior high school student who will face final exam next year. And of course enter university 3 month after that.
Even I don't take any notice about DVD and Photobook at all! I hope someone willing to upload those of stuff somewhere. Because, yeah I don't have too much money in my pocket, the mighty and various gadgeds just make me being poor and pathetic girl. Fuhh...

I wanna talk more but, suddenly, my brain drop into something urgent and... miserable. What? What? WHAT?? This is about Yuuto!! Just look those magazines lately! He haven't been sitting in front, center, front, or center anymore!! WHY.... T.T why.... ToT Yuuto still has a lot of amazing sparkle light in ... You know, the fascinating person on the entire of universe.

Current Mood: anxious
Current Location: English class

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WHAT A Weeeeeeeeeeek
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UWAAAAAAAAA What Should I Do????
aaaaaaaaaaaargghhh!!!!!!!! EXAM???!! wtf!!!!
I do Believe
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Tired
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WHAT A Weeeeeeeeeeek

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UWAAAAAAAAA What Should I Do????

aaaaaaaaaaaargghhh!!!!!!!! EXAM???!! wtf!!!!

I do Believe

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