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So guys!!!! This week is so UPSETTING to me!!!! like, abysmal stuffs are trying to break into my brain all at once.
1. I had this unesy feeling in my chest, also I felt my mouth has always been dried and something like grit stucked in my throat. IT TERRIBLY SUCKS. Want to know why did I have to go through these catastrophes?? ofc because I was PANIC and SUPER NERVOUS about this college Entrance Eximination thing!
#wipes all the sweats# But I gues I've gotten over it since a week ago, in other words, I only felt unesy and nervous in one day. Such a donkey. and I got dark circles too.
2.YAMAPI AND RYO WITHDRAW FROM NEWS FOR THE HOLY GOD'S SAKE.
Fandom is in a mess now. Like, so horrible situation you don't even want to know. everyone gets depressed and they cry and mourn and hate so much. The first time I knew about this my jaw literally dropped. Because I didn't see this coming at all (everybody stated that they saw this coming though. maybe this is just me who is extremely naive). In spite of all the hints they offered to the public for the whole year. But Yamapi did say HE WOULD NEVER BETRAY THE FANS. AND HE ASKED US TO WAIT FOR NEWS TO COME BACK. I was f belived it, dammit. and I've never expected that Ryo Nishikido, my Kansai King of my life, would be out too. WHAT IS GOING ON????!!!! I'm genuinely sad over this, even though I'm not in the fandom anymore at the moment. But I used to put NEWS as the main fandom in my list.
hi, guys! I don't wish you both to flop. really. just, this is too sad.
don't give me your fly kiss. don't. at least for now.
3. There are two memes are going on now. FANDOM RULES : Can't be two memes going on at the same time. but, yeah, kind of emergency.
EMERGENCY NEWS MEME OF SOVEREIGN HOSTILITY
4. My ENGRISH got critized in meme. I'm glad I was anon that time. She told me that I had no grasp in English. Like I didn't know it already, sweetheart. ♥ I have known it for a long time ago. long time ago probably you haven't even been born. jk :D. I mean, I'm pretty aware about my lack in english, okay. That's why I keep writing this crap in a language I don't even understand entirely so that I can improve bit by bit. But thanks for telling me anyway, I'm a tame kind of type who accept crit very well. #ehem
5. SO, Arashi fandom has been in a major crisis now. People get all worked up because other people do something (according to the common information) inappropriate in arama, like spamming post with Arashi gifs in non-Arashi post. Everyone who is not an Arashi fan would judge you as crazy fangirl because you are one of Arashi fans. so generalitation is in operation rn. That's why this is a suicidal situation in my current main fandom.
6. EVERYONE THINKS SHO IS MOST LIKELY A GAY
7. I have internal problem tonight. My group of friends had a fight. I'm included. We are more like bestfriends since we have known each other flaws and all. But I believe this is a good chance to make us more mature.
9 kids and in hormonal state.
8. This thing keep me save from insanity so far. It turns out that I still love this guy so freakin much. I thought I had forgotten all about him these past years because I found a new interest, but no. I'm a faithful woman after all.
Look at that neck, ohmigosh, pass me a sheet of tissue, my nose is bleeding.
Look at that long, strog, and masculine hands.
I'm too busy staring to care about my drooling.
OF COURSE, ALL OF THE MATERIALS I USED HERE BELONG TO ITS OWN
