My first Johnny's group I know? Well, it’s Arashi.
My very first Johnny’s I know? Well, it’s Takky, but meh, that’s not the point and that will not be discussed right now. So, let’s just leave it to the Arashi pattern for now, ok? yup.
BUT GAIZ
Did I care for them for the last 5 years after I got into fandom ? Nope. Never.
Arashi?
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Arashi : How mean!! Why did you choose this picture?? Pick the newer era, will you?? |
“WHOEMGEEE Arashi is soooo boring group I can’t even! Do you know Matsujun? That Doumyoji guy with nest-like hair? Good God, he annoys the hell out of me I want to puke on his hair nest. /rolls eyes so hard I think I might have a cross-eyed ”
“What? Aiba? I don’t even want to think about that guy!! Do you know what disgrace mean in my mother language? AIB. Yep. So I (and my friends) call him Aib (disgrace) because he’s such a disgrace for the idol world. You see, even when we watch Arashi’s PV we would scream like raging hormonal girls (well, even though we really were a bunch of hormonal girls at that time) ‘GAAAWD AIB DISGRACE MAKES MY EYES BLIND!!!’ ”
“Ohno? What? OH-NOOOOOOOOOOO I’m seeing something that I’m not supposed to see!!! That says a lot, right?”
“Nino? That little prickle guy who looks like an anaemic and would be faint if you touch him too hard (even though you have made sure you touched him as lightly as you could like you touch a baby)? Meh. He has BLACK GUM OMFG!”
“Sho? I believe he is the most boring guy I’ve ever seen in my not-so-full-of-handsome-men life. You see, he is completely like an average guy I always meet when I walk around the city. Like.... Hahahahahaha /totally ridicules him rn”
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WHAT WAS I?? THE BIGGEST MORON ON EARTH? YES I WAS.
I need 4 years to lay at anchor in the Rainbowland, and with that being said I went through a lot of realizations along the way before finally Arashi became the last harbour for me. Pffffffffffft (I can’t hold my laughter, sorry :P)
1) I came to realize that Jun is the most handsome man... ever. Despite the hostility I had for Doumyoji because in my opinion, Doumyoji was AWFULY AWFUL. Including that horrendeous nest hair and patchy moon face. ( I love the drama tho)
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He is really handsome in this picture, imo. |
2) I came to realize that Aibaby is the most lovable guy I’ve ever found in my not-so-cleaver life. He is the sweetest thing, sweeter than your chocolate cake and your sakarin. I feel soooo nasty to think that I’ve ever thought this little puppy was a disgrace. /judge me so hard rn
3) I came to realize that Ohno is the most huggable person in the whole world. And you know what? I also came to realize that Riida has the cutest smile I’ve ever seen in my not-so-rainbowy life. He is perfect I might cry even with just talk about him.
4) I came to realize that Nino is the most interesting and the most complex but in a good way and smartest little prick (still prick however I think about it) guy I’ve ever met (not). He is humble lonely one-pack man you couldn’t ever resist in your not-so emo life (you’d think about emo if you think about Nino, right? Ex-emo kid? Sorta).
5) I came to realize that Sho Sakurai is just (still) boring guy who happens to be my ideal type of man in my not-so-demanding love life. HE IS TOTALY MY CRUSH. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AS MUCH AS I LOVE MY (DECEASED) BELOVED CAT.
(even though I couldn’t choose who is my favorite member out of the five at first. But my heart told me Sho was the right choice for the sake of my happy fangirling life. I kept setting him as my wallpaper on my every single gadged I have. Lol. I dreamt about him too and I had the happiest morning since I was born).
6) I came to realize that Arashi is the only group that really affects my life. I mean, I stumbled upon several groups in the past, and one was in a quite long time too, like hsj you see, I was stayed there for almost 4 years (!!! f 4 years??!! Really?? Though I’ve been sort of coming back to the fandom lately) But all of them are merely entertainment stuffs for me all along.
7) ARASHI IS DIFFERENT
8) I GET ALL EMOTIONAL WHEN I TALK ABOUT THEM. BECAUSE, REALLY, I’M THANKFUL TO THEM.
Well, I was really in a bit of shambles at that time, to the point everything people did for my sake was actually became tiresome in the end. They tried to cheer me on but all of those golden fruit out of people kindness didn't make me feel better at all. And that was made me sad, really. I couldn’t rely on other people anymore. It was not like I didn’t believe on people nor I deliberately wanted to isolate myself from people, but I just wanted to be alone ALL THE TIME. So just with that I became a girl who was skillful at faking smile just to make sure people not to worry about me.
But one day when the sun was shining brightly and the sky was blue, as blue as sapphire blue, Arashi came down from the sky like a marvelous mega storm that they were. Precious rainbow in the middle of coulds beautifully adorned all the pictures and rain candies completed the perfectness of that fateful surreal day.
THEY DID MAGIC TO ME AND ALL OF A SUDDEN MY GREY WORLD TURNED COLOURFUL LIKE RAINBOW BLUE GREEN YELLOW RED AND PURPLE. AND I LAUGHED. SINCERE LAUGH. FRIGGIN SINCERE LAUGH. I cried a little at night because I really did have a happy day.
They brought me happiness.
They brought me laughter I’d been craving of since forever.
They brought back my motivation to keep moving forward.
They brought me a little light in the darkness.
They are just a boyband from a foreign land but they did so much for me. They don’t even know my existence but that’s not the point. I’m happy because of them and with only that is enough.
THANK YOU.
THANK YOU.
Even when everyone starts complaining about how Arashi has changed, that they are gradually losing their shining colors, dimmed, and that they are not fun like used to be, they will still have a special place somewhere in my heart, because really, they saved my life!
When someday in the far future I completely forget all about rainbowland, I believe my heart and several sheet of my brain cells will keep remembering their roles as something that is taking part in creating my life story.
"What is the title of song where five men are fooling around and telling people to start running and welcoming tomorrow, again? I used to become happy as well as all teary when I listened to that song"
without realizing that the title is HAPPINESS itself.
Or when my future grandchild ask me,
grandchild : "Who is your hero when you were young, grandma? Superman? Spiderman? Oh! I know! Anpanman, right?"
I'll go, "Nope, honey. There were five Chinese men (look, I'm a granny all right?) who told people not to give up chasing your dream. They were saving my life, that's why they ARE my HEROES!"
granny me : "Yep, They were, they are, and they always will be. Ohok ohok (I told you, I’m a granny) I don't remember their names anymore, though. Maybe Kaze or something? lol. But I'm sure people who are my Heroes would be a bunch of awesomness"
grandchild : "What was thaaaaat??? And by the way, you just typed 'lol', are you a high school girl???"
granny me : "lololololol"
What did I say earlier? Not-so-full-of-pictures-post? Bullshit?
This entry is one of several entries written for the future purpose, for all people who have supported me in any ways. (This one is for Arashi for brightened my days.lol)
I shoudn’t have posted this now tbh, remembering I’m still in the middle of the mud, struggling to reach the land. But, yeah... I’m in the mood to write so...
as usual, EEEEEEEVERTHING BELONGS TO ITS OWN, OKAY???!!
I don't have anything here, except for the rambling
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